WELL OF INNOCENCE

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You promised me!

You said it last week

“This is the last time.”

You promised me!

But here you are again

Creeping in the dark

Knocking on my door

While daddy sleeps so deeply

And mummy sleeps so sweetly

No one in sight

Just you and I

Here you are again

Asking for a drink

From a well you don’t own

Destroying a pretty little flower

Soiling my innocence

With your dirty perverted hands

Claws and fangs you have

Drinking from my well of innocence

Asking for more

Addicted to your insanity

Giving me candies and cookies

In exchange for the diamond I hold dear to my heart

GET AWAY FROM ME!

STAY AWAY!

“Mummy, help!”

I scream

Hoping someone would wake up

Praying my muffled screams will be heard

As you draw water from my well

I scream into your palms

But no one hears me

As usual

I’m left to bear this shame

All alone

To suffer this pain

All alone

No one to help

No one to save me

I drift into my safe place

The small world inside my head

A place with pretty flowers untouched

Unbruised

Unabused

I dance in my little garden

I laugh in my happy place

Shutting the doors of pain behind me

As you unrepentantly draw more water from my well

Your wickedness tainting my beauty

Your lust polluting my well of innocence

 

By Sylvia Chika

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Give me a little sun

 

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Give me a little sun

And I‘ll give you rainbows

 

Though the storm threatens

And the thunder roars

Though the hurricanes invade your peace

And you seem to have lost it all

 

Give me a little sun

And I‘ll give you rainbows

 

Though the doctors poke your skin

And the needles cause you to squirm

Though the date has been declared

And everyone mourns you just before you fade away

 

Give me a little sun

And I‘ll give you rainbows

 

Though you’ve been accused

And no one cares to hear the truth

Though you’ve been labeled

And it seems like no one really cares

 

Give me a little sun

And I‘ll give you rainbows

 

Though your garden looks destroyed

And the little plants have been trampled upon

Though the intruder lurks in the dark

And no one seems to hear your cry for help

 

Give me a little sun

And I‘ll give you rainbows

 

Even when it all seems dark and lost

Even when the rain threatens to fall

Even when the world seems cruel

Even when you have no reason to hope

 

Give me a little sun

And I‘ll give you rainbows

 

Give hope a chance

Let the light in

 

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SAY GOODBYE

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I don’t want to say goodbye

But I have to say goodbye

I see you slipping away

Fading away

As this illness pulls you closer

Into its cold embrace

I see you

But I don’t see you

Everything seems surreal

If only I could have five more years

A little more time with you

Because I’m really not ready

I’m not ready to say goodbye

I don’t want to say goodbye

This is all so unfair!

Oh, please…

I’m not ready!

I’m not ready to say goodbye!

 

 

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GO CUPID! BE GONE!

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Cupid don’t be stupid

Fly elsewhere

You don’t belong here

I have no time to play games

Don’t even bother calling my name

Oh, please!

Flee!

Go away with your bow and arrow

Leave those that mourn to be in sorrow

Fly away!

Go away!

You are not needed here

Fly elsewhere

And look for someone else to bother

Look around for lovers

They are everywhere

See them here and there

Inflict your wounds of love elsewhere

I repeat, “You don’t belong here!”

“Shoo!”

Be gone!

 

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ROOTS

 

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Everyone saw the tree

It was huge

Dry and ugly

It blocked the beautiful view ahead

Right there in the middle of the other beautiful trees

It kept growing bigger and bigger

Time passed by

The other trees got smaller

But the dry tree grew bigger

It was killing everything around it

It looked so dead

Yet it grew so big

No one knew why

But the evil glared in their faces

No one saw its roots

Buried deep within the soil

Large roots that sucked up life

Evil roots spreading underneath the soil

Poisoning everything around it

Everyone saw the tree

But no one saw its roots

No one saw the roots of bitterness

 

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CAPTURED

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You lied!

You are a liar!

How quickly I fell

How high the fall

How dare you lie so beautifully?

A cunning thief you are

Disguised in pretty clothes

And a sweet accent

Oh, I fell!

For your lies

I fell!

You lured me into your web

You spoke about greener pastures

Painted pictures so enchanting

I was deceived

By your promises and tales

I put my needs ahead of logic

I let my desire for a false freedom

Lead me into captivity

What a fool I was!

Captured I was not

But captured I am now

I’ve been chained

Chained in a land I know not

Chained to a bed I know not

Sold to give pleasure to men I know not

The days pass by

 I treasure them not

My choices, I despise

My life, I hate

My captor, I detest

Freedom!!!

Where art thou?!

Bring me back those days

Those days I had it all

But wanted more

Send a note to my mama and papa

Tell them I love them

Tell them I was scammed

Tell them I miss them

Tell them I’ll be back home soon

Soon?

If wishes were coins

I would have bought my freedom

But here I am

Enslaved by the devilish schemes of my captor

My master

He holds a whip!

Pray for me!

Pray for me!

He is coming soon…no…

He is right at my door!

Please, pray for me!

My captor is the devil!

 

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TELL ME WHY

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Tell me why

Why you sit in the shadows

When the light is right in front of you

 

Why you choose to fade away

When you can shine

Brighter than the stars in the sky

 

Why you wither away

When you can bloom

And stay beautiful like the rose flower in my garden

 

Tell me why

Why you choose to hide your true self

Just to fit into the ideology of another

 

Tell me why

Why you hunger for toxic pills

Pills that steal your youth and innocence

 

Tell me why

Why you choose to be lost

When you can be found and safe

 

Tell me why

I’m trying not to cry

Cos’ I see waste

A pretty flower

Hidden behind dark curtains

A pretty flower in torment

A beautiful flower you are

Yet you choose not to bloom

Please, tell me why!

 

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NO!

 

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A thousand petals

Wine and chocolates

Perfect!

Always perfect!

Perfect to me

Never perfect to you

A hundred proposals

And a hundred no’s

A thousand nights of tears

Heartbreaks and regrets

Tormented thoughts from all your no’s

Why “no”?

What’s wrong with me?

And once again

I try again

The perfect scene

A diamond ring

My charming smile

My special tux

And still you say no!

No?!

Give me a “yes”!

A “yes”…or something close to it

I crawl back into my hole

And swim in an abyss of tears

Anger

Rage

Hurt

Bitterness

The shackles that bind me

 This has now become my mission

I no longer love you

I’m just…

I just…

And then it dawns on me

“I’m addicted!”

Addicted to your indifference

Addicted to your rejection

Addicted to your “no’s”

I’m an addict!

Lost in a cocoon of misery

A star-eyed lunatic

In search of a “yes”

From the lips of my tormentor

I no longer love you

What I feel is…

I…

Come on!

I need a “yes”!

Free me from this misery!

Just give me a “yes”!

Say yes!

Please say yes!

 

By Sylvia Chika

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STRANGERS

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When?

When did we throw caution to the wind?

Living life with no care

Unconcerned about the distance between us

The silence

Those conversations that should have happened

When?

When did we become strangers?

 
 

This was never the plan

It all started out so well

Now, it’s slowly becoming a distant memory

You seem to have moved on

Have you?

I can’t tell

Cos’ you are now a stranger

Please, when did we become strangers?!!!

 
 

I still remember how hard I fell for you

How silly I acted around you

I would walk all night just to see you at dawn

So far away I lived from you

Yet, the distance didn’t really matter

The distance made me fight harder

So tell me…

When did we become strangers?

 
 

We both did wrong

We let the fire burn out

We got so comfortable

We no longer threw in the logs

We watched the fire die

Tolerating our flaws

But not really caring for each other anymore

Oh lord…that’s how we became strangers!

 
 

Here I am reminiscing

Waiting for you to come back to me

And there you are

Holding on to the ring of another

What can I do to win your heart again?

Tell me, Mi Amour

I can’t bear the “what ifs”

I can’t be a stranger anymore

 

By Sylvia Chika

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Your Love

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Take me to your secret place

Let me abide under your shadow

As I drink in your beauty

Shaken by your glory

I worship!

Intoxicated by this love

Sweet and filling

True and untainted

YOU!

You are love!

You are Lord!

I ponder on this love story

All I see is the cross

The nails

The pain

And then the glory

Oh, my best love story!

It might mean so little to some

But to me it means everything

You mean everything to me

Your love is unquestionable

Your love…like a soft blanket around me

Protecting me

Molding me

Keeping me warm

I yield to you

Freeing myself to be filled

To drown in this beautiful pool of perfection

Perfect love

I yield to you

Perfect you are

Perfect your love is

Your love

My perfect blanket

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By Sylvia Chika

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